Juzmewendy

Photos from everywhere

2012-01-16T17:02:00.004+08:00

1) Zouk
2) Swee Choon with my fav girls, Freda and Huiqing
3) Box n Sticks with M, A and R.
4) Caught We Not Naughty at Illuma with M, A and R.

Just thought I should update. x

2011

2011-12-31T01:39:00.002+08:00

To all who stucked with me throughout 2011, thank you.
I love every single one of you above in those pictures. You're all keepers. x

I hope for 2012 to be a better year, and happy new year to all of you in advance. :)

@bitchierollex

2011-12-23T00:36:00.000+08:00

My princesss ♥♥♥

:(

2011-12-20T03:27:00.003+08:00

My hammie just died and I feel horrible because I witnessed everything.

All I could do was see her gasp for breath as I sat there. I felt so fucking helpless because she was suffering and I could do nothing but watch.

I can't stop crying, I feel fucking terrible.

Because of this I am never getting a pet of my own again. I don't ever want to feel this helpless again I swear.

The last time I cried this bad for a pet was when my aunt gave away my dog.

This

2011-12-19T03:04:00.001+08:00

Thoughts at 3am in the morning

Unlocked

2011-12-14T17:30:00.000+08:00

Life's getting better. Finally pulled myself together and cleared my thoughts.

Thanks for staying by me.

Just thought you should know

2011-12-05T23:47:00.001+08:00

I depend on people I trust alot. So when I start to feel like I'm losing them to someone else, I'll not say a thing and just distant myself away from them. I do that because I feel that if I'm so easily replaced in their lives, they're just not worth my time anymore. I really wanted to just distant myself away from you, but I chose not to.

You're different, and I think you should know how much this friendship means to me.

A Reminder:

2011-12-02T02:37:00.001+08:00

Starting tonight, I need to forget what's gone, appreciate what still remains, and look forward to what's coming next.

Goodnight.

A little too much

2011-12-02T00:20:00.002+08:00

Having too much sadness in me lately, more than usual. My life is a complete mess, I'm a mess. And I'm just sitting here, watching my life crumble down. I don't even know why I'm crying right now. I feel broken and tired. This isn't what I want.

Somebody wake me up and tell me everything is just a horrible nightmare.

Stuck

2011-11-30T20:45:00.012+08:00

I really don't know where I'm headed to in life right now, no goal, nothing. It's the final semester in school, and I honestly question myself every single day in class "Why am I here?". I used to enjoy what I'm doing, but ever since 2 of our lecturers left, the lessons in school are pointless. Why? We're really not learning anything at all. The 4 hours spent in class are spent on doing work we've learnt during Year 2 and not taught on what we're suppose to be doing for this module. 7 weeks into school and we're all stuck with doing this.

Juggling with 2 major projects at one go, I swear I'm going mental. Not to mention, I lost my hard disk with all my past work, and I'm supposed to work on my portfolio this semester. I seriously am on the verge of breaking down and I don't know how much more I can take.

I hate school. I hate the changes they made. I hate that it's making me lose the motivation I used to have. I don't even want to stay in school till 9pm to do my work. It just isn't the same anymore.
I might seem nonchalant towards everything, but it really bothers me that this matters so much to me and yet I'm no longer driven to do my work.

And the worst part, I'll be disappointed with myself and my grades will suffer at the end of all this.

I just want to curl up and cry now.

I'm sorry but I really needed to rant because every time I try to talk to someone about this, it didn't seem like they could understand how depressing this is.

Scars

2011-11-29T02:14:00.003+08:00

"People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don’t. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut’s long gone, the pain still lingers."

- Grey's Anatomy

I should really be sleeping now, got a 8am class later. Goodnight lovelies.

My life lately, count to 10

2011-11-15T20:41:00.003+08:00

1) Hello

2) I miss you.

3) Puikia #1 + Puikia #2, 24/7 on whatsapp and always there.

4) The only person keeping me sane in school, my foreveralone baby.

5) Met my bestfriend, my pillar of strength.

6) Working at Sogurt with Zoe luv, supper with my unicorns.

7) New phone cover.

8) Finally found goodness in singapore.

9) New nails that cost a bomb.

10) Need to survive the last sem of school.

Together, we're infinite

2011-10-25T00:58:00.001+08:00

Can't put to words how happy you've made me and how lucky I feel to have you love me despite knowing all my flaws. Sorry for putting you through the times I lost myself and made you sad and angry. I like that we never really plan our days and dates, and end up having fun and the best times together. Makes it feel like we were meant to be there, at the right place at the right time. I hope you had a good time on your birthday, and I hope you're as happy as I am or even better, happier. I love where we are now, and I wish it'll always stay this way.

I'm probably a teeny weeny late for this post but still,
Happy 19th birthday dear love ♥

Glittercorns

2011-10-13T04:05:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone, meet my unicorns. Evan, Zoe & Jo. xx

Apologies and messed up chances

2011-10-12T02:11:00.001+08:00

"I wish I could put all my thoughts in a jar. I think too much. Thinking too much causes me to over think and analyze things I don't want to deal with. It gets too much for me to handle and I panic. I shut myself down and go to war with myself. I'm tired. I'm sick of being tired. I don't like who I am, but I have to live with it. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm sick of feeling sad. Sick of wanting things and people I can't have. I want to be at peace with myself for once. To be happy and think about things that doesn't send me over the edge."

Workaholic?

2011-09-30T23:59:00.005+08:00

Just got back from work and birthday dinner for daddy. Waiting for the toilet to be available, so I thought I'd update abit. Been spending alot of time at work and also with the love of my life, I hardly ever have time for this space anymore. Thinking of locking this space since I don't really update anymore, or maybe I'll just leave it here to rot.

That aside, work's great, been meeting so many new people. Thanks to the sogirls I've met and work with so far, it's never boring. They're a bunch of bubbly sweethearts. Life's been going good and smooth so far, I hope it stays this way. :)

Oh anyhow, school's starting in 2 weeks and I'm kinda excited. It's the last semester before my poly life ends and I graduate. I honestly can't wait for that day to come, but I'm going to miss the nights spent in maya lab w my girlies. Miss all the girls so much, I haven't seen them for months. Hopefully we'll meet up within the next 2 weeks before school starts. Have got so much catching up to do.

Love's birthday is in 3 weeks, and did I mention we just had our 3rd Anniversary together? It was an exciting week together and I love him more than ever. Been through so much and I'm glad we are where we are now. I honestly don't know what the future holds for us, but I want to marry him. I love you Michael Khoo. See you again in 2 days, xx

Can we still be friends?

2011-09-14T23:07:00.001+08:00

"Can we still be friends?" Can anyone ever truly be friends again after a break up? You give a person your everything. In turn, they learn everything about you, every insignificant fact. But suddenly they disappear. They aren't yours anymore and you are somehow suppose to talk to them. There will be awkward pauses where the "I love you" used to go and the colourful conversations will be dull and painful. And even if years pass, you still won't talk normally because talking to them will remind you why you fell in love with them in the first place.

(via leilockheart.tumblr)

Just felt like sharing something I saw on tumblr today. :)
I honestly never had an answer to that question. Oh well, haha. It's just a random thought.

Dead space

2011-08-31T00:07:00.001+08:00

My blog's pretty much dead because I haven't been out much and I don't exactly have the time. There's actually nothing to blog about as well. Been working and working and working, but I enjoy working very much! I'm working at Sogurt by the way, drop by and visit me please! It gets boring sometimes. I love how everyone is super duper nice at Sogurt, makes working there so much more enjoyable. :)

I'll update whenever I have the time! Life's been really smooth for me so far, and I hope all is well for everyone else too. Toodles ^^

35th

2011-08-23T01:09:00.001+08:00

Didn't get enough sleep on that day, so don't mind the horrible eye bags and tired eyes.

Had a small argument the night before, so I decided to surprise him at his place with chocolates while he was still in bed. Headed out for movie, caught the zookeeper and had dinner! Simple date but I simply adore days like this with him :)

Sorry for making you upset just one night before, you know that I love you.

Happy 35th Love ♥ (Belated). Haha.

Fun filled saturday

2011-08-17T02:13:00.000+08:00

Fulfilling saturday! Ice Skating > Bowling > Steamboat at Bugis > Yilin's place. Yup, check out our bare faces above. Hehe. Spent it with my favourite people, never a day boring with them around. I guess we try to plan our day out so that we won't end up having nothing to do. Love that our weekends are never spent rotting in town anymore. :)

It's the holidays now, and I think I got hired for the job I was looking for. Hehe. Even though the person hasn't called, but I think and I hope I did. Shall not reveal much till I finally get it. Keeping my fingers cross! Need to work and earn money. Wahahaha.

Love And Other Drugs

2011-08-11T20:02:00.001+08:00

Couldn't stop tearing at the end of the movie, I'm a sucker for romance movies. Love Anne Hathaway and Jake Gyllenhaal. They're both such beautiful people. :')

Watch it if you haven't. Rated M18 though, got quite abit of sexual content in this movie.

Hugo

2011-08-08T00:07:00.001+08:00

This is Hugo, Fiona's pup.
So cute rightttt, look like bear!! Kekeke. ♥
I also want to have a dog I can call my own, have always wanted one :(

Ryan's 19th Birthday

2011-08-01T20:42:00.003+08:00

Celebrated Ryan's 19th birthday, best brother on earth together along with Muddy. Hehe.

I don't think I'll ever be able to go through secondary school life without them. Always and will be my pillars of strength. The people who saw me at my worst and still love me for who I am. I'll always remember the times when I was crying and you guys will always be there to cheer me up with your guitar playing and singing. I know we all hardly meet up now because we're all so busy with our own lives, but I'll never forget anyone of you. I look forward to birthdays now because I know that no matter what, we will definitely meet to celebrate each others birthday :)

Let's all grow old together please? Hahahaha.

To end off this post,
Happy 19th Birthday Ryan!
It's actually never too late to wish you right, haha. :p

Pancakes and board games

2011-07-25T11:24:00.002+08:00

Headed towards town to meet Rusk and Amanda~ My bf so cute hor like a small boy bo. Hahahahaha.

Our manicured nails~ Hehe. The girlier one is mine..... Haha. And bumped into Heidi in town! Showed her my nails and she went like " WA POLKA DOTS!" Hahahaha.

Strictly pancakes for dinner after that!

Maple syrup that looked like shots. Haha.

My bf no.1 enemy. Lol. He is not a fussy eater, but when it comes to shitake mushrooms, it's a NO. Hahaha. And they happen to be one of my fav food. :(

The pancakes are so fluffyyyyyy and I can never find the right words to describe them because they beat Mac's hotcakes hands down. In my opinion la. Haha. And it comes with different side dishes. Like mushrooms, bacon, corn beef, scrambled eggs and chicken chipolata. They also have other types of pancakes which we didn't try. The menu's pretty unique though, not just your ordinary pancakes teehee. :)

Check out their website if you're keen~
http://www.strictlypancakes.com.sg

Headed down to Mind Cafe for some board gaming!

Never ending laughters and we spent most of our time there. Pretty much better than doing nothing and rotting in town on Saturday. Hehe.

So the camera decided not to focus on us AT ALL, and refused to. And when all else fails, we resort to using the iphone camera.

Well spent Saturday! Happy and fulfilling. :)

20 things

2011-07-21T17:00:00.000+08:00

No. 3 to 8 = Zero Tolerance

34th

2011-07-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

Happy 2 years 10 months to us ♥

Thank you for being so accommodating, for making sacrifices.

Thank you for loving me, and not giving up on us.

10 years of my childhood

2011-07-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

USS with the company during the day, and spent the evening with love on Friday. Caught the very last of Harry Potter and watched it in 3D to make the best out of it. Can't believe it's been 10 years, felt like I watched all 3 of them grow up. Not exactly a hardcore fan of HP, but I love HP enough to miss them. The boy was asking me questions throughout the entire movie because he was so clueless. But I'm so happy that he booked the tix and sat through the movie with me. I love you. :)

Rosa - A tumblr related post

2011-07-13T12:16:00.003+08:00

Tonight I’m going to sleep feeling completely disappointed. It’s not correct to say that human beings change in time and therefore they are not trustworthy people. After all change may be for the better. But more importantly, they stop putting in as much effort in the relationships they build with one another. They stop being as nice. Perhaps they don’t see a point in it because it’s all supposed to be implicit?

Take for example this story about a man who travelled hours daily just to cook bacon for a girl he liked every morning (she lived a great distance away) to win her heart and also because she loved bacon and he wanted her to be happy. He wanted her happy every morning. After that he won her over and they eventually moved in together. From then onwards he continued to cook her bacon every morning until gradually he got bored of doing it. “I’ve already got the girl, what’s the point of continuing this?” “I’m sure she wouldn’t mind.” “She already knows I love her, is this really necessary?” And so he stopped cooking bacon. He never did it again. He bought a poster of fried bacon and pasted it on their bedroom wall. “Now she can look at it everyday and be reminded of how much I love her.” What he doesn’t know is that it will never be the same again. Their relationship started from point “Cooking Bacon”. Cooking bacon was the crux of their relationship. Cooking bacon brought them together. And now it’s been cast aside as a useless thing to do. How people change. How people so easily forget the drive that made them do incredibly sweet things. They invest less sincerity and time. They stop DOING. They stop seeing the point. They start to ask: what’s the point? in almost every thing that they do. They stop doing things that are meaningless in the eyes of the world but at the same time most meaningful to themselves. They start to only be interested in doing things to fulfill tangible needs. They forget totally, that the heart requires nourishment. It requires protection and care.

I’ve given you the core of my heart. I ask questions not because I’m greedy and I want everything. Not because I’m crazy and I want to hear sweet words all the time. I ask only because when with you I become vulnerable. I want to know I’m not making a mistake by making you the closest person I’ll ever be with. I ask because I’m truly scared.

Too bad you don’t see that the rose bush is in severe need of watering. You only see the thorns that irk you and you spend all of your time with gardening scissors, trimming away, snipping away. But there is no point. The flowers need to be watered. Otherwise they will wither and die. They will die and then you will never see the rose bush again.

via lighttimestories

Relationships are so fragile, I don't think I can keep up if I'm always the only one trying. So if one day I finally stop contacting you, it's the day I've decided to stop trying. There and then, you'll know it's the end of us. Everything that once mattered won't be of any significance anymore. I won't cry because I have decided, you're just not worth my time anymore. And that's that, I won't turn back.

This implies to everyone around me. Just saying.

Little House

2011-07-11T14:22:00.004+08:00

I love this place

But it's haunted without you

My tired heart

Is beating so slow

Our hearts sing less than

We wanted, we wanted

Our hearts sing 'cause

We do not know, we do not know

To light the night, to help us grow

To help us grow

It is not said, I always know

You can catch me

Don't you run, don't you run

If you live another day

In this happy little house

The fire's here to stay

To light the night, to help us grow

To help us grow

It is not said, I always know

Please don't make a fuss, it won't go away

The wonder of it all

The wonder that I made

I am here to stay

Stay

**

I know I haven't been updating much, but I've been really lazy. I kinda come back and update only when I have something to share, or pictures to post.

Whatever it is, have a gr8 week ahead and rid off the monday blues. :)

Ruskrusk 19th Birthday

2011-07-05T09:29:00.002+08:00

Quite a huge amount of pictures for this post! Celebrated Rusk's Birthday during the weekends at Ikea!

Birthday boy! Apparently.. this was the only picture of him in that bulk of photos we took that day. lol.

Headed to chinatown first with Fiona and Nich because we wanted to head to OM. But oh my god, when we got there they went on a break. To make things worst, the weather was so hot! Machiam suntanning sia. -____- So because we were going to be late, we left chinatown and headed to Ikea and met the rest.

Wahahaha! Real life labixiaoxin aka shin chan for you~

The sun was rly very bright I could barely open my eyes and look into the camera.

After looking at this picture for long, kelvin loook like butch sia? HAHAHAHA.

Authentic act cute queen but really very cute. Hahaha.

Idk who take for them sia, this was the clearest among all the pictures they took. The rest were unfocussed.

My bbys! Favourite girls of all time. xx

It was a really gr8 day, but my mood wasn't at its best on that day soooo yup. But other than that, I enjoyed myself and I believe the rest did too.

I know it's kinda late to say this on my blog but still..
Happy 19th Birthday Rusk! :)

If you would stay just a little

2011-07-03T02:20:00.005+08:00

At one point in time, you thought you could always rely on this one person to understand and hear you out even if the whole world doesn't give a fuck. All of a sudden, the tables turn and this person won't listen to you anymore because the decision to put all the trust and faith in the words the other person has to say was made.

Funny how I thought that the one person who will never disappoint me, just did.

You know, I'm sick of always being judged and accused. And some people still ask me why I don't want to talk or can't be bothered to explain. Even if I said something or tried explaining, were you really listening to what I have to say or did you just listen because you felt like you needed to. Because really, you were never obliged to from the start.

All I need is to know that I have someone to rely on, someone who would really listen, try to understand and put themselves in my shoes. But I know it's impossible because no one will ever be able to. And that's because the only person who knows what I'm actually going through, it's me and it will only be me.

It's never easy growing up in a broken family and waking up to people in this house who judge and couldn't care less about how you feel and all they do is put you down.

I hate being so vulnerable.

Popper's Penguin

2011-06-28T10:34:00.001+08:00

Some fail outfit picture. Hahaha. Too shy to take already. Amanda and I were laughing and laughing while trying to get the right shot. But there was never a right one.. LOL -_____-

So anyway.. moving on to the rest of the pictures..

Yang Guang Nan Hai! (Sunshine Boy) Hahaha.

See this girl so cute right? I also don't know why so cute sia. Oi, why you so cute?

Everytime take picture with him right, forever got pattern one.

Ending off with a retarded gif of me.

Popper's Penguin was super funny, I think my bf laugh the loudest in the cinema. Serious. Hahahaha. And all the penguins were sooooooo cute!! I want to be a penguin now. Who wna join my penguin clan? *flap flap* Wahahaha.

Tired

2011-06-27T11:40:00.001+08:00

Sick of explaining myself. Sick of being accused for not caring and for something I didn't do. It really feels like I'm the villain in every situation, and all the fault lies in me. Has anybody actually really listened to what I have to say? Have you?

I could have chose to forget about making things right again, but I didn't. And you say I don't care.

Chatroulette Troll Kid

2011-06-24T16:44:00.002+08:00

Burst out laughing in the office after looking at this, especially the "Nihao" HAHAHAHA. Even though I'm asian, but hell, it's too funny.

Shopxwendy

2011-06-22T14:46:00.000+08:00

Selling brand new clothes I've never worn before :)

It's a pity to see them hanging in my wardrobe and yes I'm a super impulsive buyer.

http://shopxwendy.livejournal.com

Will upload more soon once I've taken pictures.

Thank you :)

Someone fix me

2011-06-20T16:03:00.002+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Tears stream down on your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face

And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down on your face

And on your face I...

iTunes on shuffle in the office and coldplay came on, and it's been on replay ever since.. I'll never get sick of them.

33rd

2011-06-20T01:15:00.001+08:00

Happy 2 years 9 months ♥

You have been a very good bear and things have been going so well for us (minus all the minor squabbles and you being annoying every now and then), I hope it stays this way forever.

I love you.

Rusk The Army Boy

2011-06-13T13:43:00.002+08:00

Dinner and watched Rusk shaved his hair off last thursday before he entered NS. The look on his face while shaving his hair was literally ): Damn sad.... Hahahaha. Known this bunch for such a long time and I enjoy being with them so much because there'll always be laughter with them around. ♥

Can't wait for the next time we all meet, which is in 2 weeks when Rusk books out, I hope :)

Growing Up

2011-06-07T17:53:00.002+08:00

Growing Up from Jr.canest on Vimeo.

I was researching for some reference video online for a project and came across this. I like how the video explains the process of growing up and making it so cute and detailed at the same time. I really wouldn't mind doing Motion Graphics in future. Hehe.

Polaroid fun

2011-06-06T20:30:00.003+08:00

Downloaded some polaroid app and hehehe. It converts all your original pictures into polaroids. Been playing around w it since an hour ago. I know right.. I've got nothing better to do.

I really can't wait for my 3 months holidays to arrive. My life is so mundane, it's a cycle.
2 months more till my internship ends, and yes I am already counting down. I've been counting down since the day my internship started actually. I don't think I ever want to step out into the working industry. I dread working everyday, really.

I'm a bore bore bore.. I actually wonder who still bothers to read this space. lol.

0849hrs

2011-06-03T08:49:00.002+08:00

Good Morning all! My eyebag gao lat anot!? Hahahaha.
I'm off to work! Happy Friday and a good weekend! xx

Saturday in a summary

2011-05-30T16:18:00.000+08:00

See this girl so cute one.

Love of my life ^____^

This boy even more cute.

Boys playing their poker.

Karaoke @ Woodlands then to Dhoby for the Man U Vs Barcelona match. Not exactly a huge fan of soccer but I guess it was pretty alright minus the walking + heat.

I hope you guys enjoyed your weekends as much as I did.
xx

Nothing that’s worthwhile is ever easy

2011-05-23T23:35:00.002+08:00

"So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard; We're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me, everyday."

- Nicholas Sparks

I love you.

^____^

2011-05-19T21:35:00.001+08:00

Random photo I found in my iPhoto before I dyed and cut my hair.

And I'm happy, very happy. ^___^

Visuals for Heidi's Birthday I

2011-05-16T17:13:00.003+08:00

Taken with iPhone, which explains the quality.
2nd batch of pictures shall come soon.

Heidi

2011-05-15T01:41:00.001+08:00

I'm about a day late for this birthday post, but still, I'm going to write this. With my sprained ankle, which is getting better by the way. So don't worry about me, okay? We've known each other for a long while, and seen each other change. See one another go through stuff, and just be there whenever we need someone. Somehow, we take turns to look after each other. Okay, I shall not go into all the mushy and sentimental stuff aye. Happy day for you. :)

Happy 19th Birthday Sweetheart, you're a year older now.
Just know I'll always be here when you need me, love you and keep that smile on your face. You've got a beautiful smile. ♥

Saturday

2011-05-11T09:18:00.000+08:00

Monopoly Deal, Spinelli's and an imaginary animal farm on Saturday. Gr8 company and friends. :)

Feelings

2011-05-04T13:51:00.000+08:00

This is exactly how I feel everyday now..

These things are never easy

2011-05-03T21:08:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking alot lately, about how people are telling me what's meant to be will be. Honestly? You know what I think? I would say fuck that and stop believing in that damn quote. You're not going to know until you try. Why in the world would you want to leave everything up to fate/destiny or whatever the fuck you believe in when you don't even try? Just my 2 cents worth. Now when I see couples walking on the streets, I feel so envious and it reminds me alot. I know every couple have their ups and downs but sometimes, looking at them makes me smile but it makes me feel really bitter as well.

I'm pretty sure most of you know what happened between M and I. I won't deny that I'm hurting, and I'm not okay. This is probably going to be one of the worst break ups I'm going to ever experience in my whole entire life.

For the first time, I actually felt my heart aching. For the first time, I didn't have food down my throat for at least 2 days. I cried for the entire day on the first day of our break up. It was really hard on me, and I felt nothing but my heart sinking. I didn't want to speak to anyone at all. I swear I thought I was going into depression. lol. I know it's going to be hard moving on, and I know that time will heal. How long isit going to take? I don't know as well. In fact, nobody knows. I'm trying to stay strong, and trying to stay happy for the people around me. I'm really trying. For those who have been in a long-term r/s and been through this stage before, should probably know this better than me or anyone else.

What I feel is real, the love we shared was real. The past 30 months with him was crazy, we had so much disagreements and arguments. Broken promises, disappointments and what not. We also had our good times, the times that used to be the reason why I held on for so long. But I guess all good things come to an end. Well, it's not exactly the end for us. We're still going to remain as good friends, I think? He's probably the one person who understands me best, who can tell straightaway when I'm unhappy. And I can say that, I'm able to trust him with all my secrets. He could just be my bestfriend. One thing for sure, I know that no matter what happens, he'll always have a place in my heart because he really means that much to me. :)

If I could, I would tell every couple to cherish every single moment spent with their partners because they really wouldn't know when things would actually end or how things would change. It's really never too late and it's never difficult to tell your partner these 3 words "I love you". (And of course, when you say it, mean it.)

I miss you

2011-05-02T12:58:00.002+08:00

Every single fucking day.

IU

2011-04-29T17:28:00.002+08:00

Her name is IU and she's this korean singer. My latest eyecandy. Yup, I eyecandy girls but I'm no lesbian. haha. I find her super duper pretty, and her voice is damn sweet and nice. I'd do anything to have a face like that man. So cute, sweet and pretty at the same time!

This is her singing in Dream High, some korean drama. She's in the sushi costume.

I'm super bored at work, so yup always stalk pretty girls/celebrities. Alright, TGIF. Have a good weekend ahead you guys. xx

You're Chuck

2011-04-28T17:47:00.004+08:00

M

2011-04-25T08:07:00.003+08:00

You'll always be a part of me.

Strangers, again

2011-04-22T10:11:00.003+08:00

Made me teared in the morning..

"Every relationship goes through stages. Where and how each stage develops is ultimately up to each person. While we always hope for the best, we often can't avoid the inevitable."

"Sometimes we forget how lucky we are to be two people who have found each other."
While watching , it reminded me of this quote which I chanced upon on a blog about 2 years back. I think it applies to all couples doesn't it? Or maybe even two good friends.

30th

2011-04-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

"The thing is, you make me happy. You walked in when it seemed like the rest of the world walked out. You were there, you are there. I never need to pretend when I’m around you, when I’m talking, when I’m with you. You’re hilarious; you make me laugh all the time. You seem to pick up when something’s wrong before everyone else does and you know exactly what to say to make it all okay, and even if it’s only for a little while, it helps. The thing is, I love you. thank you for everything."

Happy 30th Love ♥

**

I know I haven't been updating much because I've been busy and my health hasn't been at best lately. I spent 2 nights ago puking away which felt really terrible and I hardly got any sleep. I'm feeling better now anyway, and still waiting for Heidi to upload the photos from Brandon's birthday. So yup, will be back to update this space soon. Byebye!

At Work

2011-04-14T12:06:00.000+08:00

Trying very hard to keep myself awake because of the meds I took this morning. It makes me drowsy. I fall asleep instantly when I lie on my bed. It's like a sleeping pill. Am recovering though, but my nose and ears are blocked which is really annoying.

Ok, gotta go before I get caught! Will update soon!

Indeed a blessed 19th

2011-04-11T00:39:00.001+08:00

Beautiful blue roses from the boy. I really wish they won't wither and die ):

Blessed to have a boyfriend who truly loves me, blessed to have friends like family.
Thank you all for always going the extra mile just to put that smile on my face, always making my birthday such a pleasant one. I love you all, and words can't express how thankful I am for everything you guys have done for me. ♥

Growling tummy

2011-04-04T19:15:00.001+08:00

Seeing the girls @ Ikea in 45 mins to satisfy my meatball craving! Cannot freaking wait, I miss them like abedsfouewbgewalg! At least while I'm out, it takes my mind off a few things for abit.

Btw, I'm not wearing lipstick. My body too heaty already thats why lips so red ):

Overthinkers

2011-04-04T16:06:00.000+08:00

Burlesque

2011-04-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

Selling

2011-03-31T01:01:00.006+08:00

EATINZOMBIE

Printed Babydoll Tier Top

Fits UK6 to 8

Brand New, never worn before

SGD22 Mailed
Bought at SGD25

PENDING

If interested/any queries, Email: ljw_wendy@hotmail.com

Thx, xx

Bestie

2011-03-29T19:23:00.000+08:00

Spam y'all with 9 of my faces. Some narcissism hahaha. Za would say that I'm obsessed with myself. So just last tuesday I met her and we had dinner together. Caught up alot and I always always enjoy her company and 1 on 1 dates with her. She brings back the most memories for me in secondary school because she was always there. I won't deny that we've drifted, but I'm sure we'll be much closer than before. I believe in us. She's still the person I can tell things to without worrying that she's gonna tell someone else. One of the few people in my lives that I trust the most, even though there are times she really piss me off and she knows why. If you still read my blog, then I just want to let you know that you always mean alot to me and I still love you bestie. :)

Internship

2011-03-23T19:18:00.002+08:00

Just got back from work awhile ago. I know I haven't been updating much, but I don't really have the mood to update especially after work. I just want to lay here and just forget the world~~~ Hahahaha. Ok lame.

I think I'm lucky enough already, cuz my workplace is walking distance. Hehe. But I have to be at paya lebar tmrw at 730 in the morning. Any idea how far that is for me? ): VERY. But the company is nice enough to let me claim taxi fare from them. I hope they will always be this nice.

I don't feel like talking about work/company anymore and alot of information have to be kept confidential, so I guess I can't say much either. And, http://www.formspring.me/Juzmewendy Cuz I get bored at work sometimes and sometimes things like these keep me entertained. Huahuahua.

Be back when something more exciting happens in my life ok? Quite surprise that there are still people who read this boring space. Luvluv. X.

5 more days

2011-03-16T22:44:00.003+08:00

5 more days till my holidays officially end. I don't really know if I'm actually ready to step out into the real world. Kinda excited for internship to start but dreading it as well. The people there seem nice but.. it was only 1 meeting, so who knows how isit gna be like working there for the next 5 months.

Really gna miss all the girls in school though. ):

Huiqing's 19th Birthday Celebration

2011-03-11T04:17:00.001+08:00

Wordy and lots of pictures ahead!

It was such a happy and good day that if I were to write about every happy and funny thing that happened, it would have to be everything. We'll go with the flow as I post pictures, and I'll add captions ya? So we had a belated birthday celebration for Huiqing at Riders Cafe.

The horses there are so cute!! I want to own and ride on one someday.

This was some "free" dish that we didn't order. It's like they will serve it to every table before a meal. You know you go those chinese restaurant then they give you "free" peanuts? Ya. I don't know what you call that. And then all of us thought it was this Salmon Starters dish that we ordered. So obviously we were thinking where's the salmon?! And sooooo, the very funny Mel told all of us that she thinks that the salmon is like mixed together with the green sauce cause there's like a fishy taste to it. So it lead to us all imagine that there's really the salmon fishy taste in it. Until.. the next dish came.

OUR SALMON STARTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA. Feel like some goondu after that lor seriously. -_____-

I don't know what is this, but Mel ordered it because she thought it was suppose to be some roasted chicken. In the end, it's some vegetarian dish which tasted alright.

I forgot what's this called but the beef patty very thick and shiok! ^^

Risottoooooo!! My favourite. I like everything about this dish, the Hokkaido Scallops and the Broccolli!!! SLURPS. :p

What's a birthday celebration without a cake right? And I swear this was the hardest birthday cake I've ever lighted up.

It took us so long to light up the candles because of the wind.

She looks so happy and it makes me happy too :)

Funny things just happens with Mel all the time. Hahahaaha!

Our gift for Huiqing! The bottle is so pretty rightttt. I like the smell alot too. Hehe. I hope you liked what we got you! :)

So after all that, the walk out of Riders Cafe was really really funny. Mel was blabbering about not being able to find a way out because it seemed like a dead end. There's actually a short video of it on fb, but I can't embed it here. Hahaha so look it up there. The part at the tunnel was hilarious because it was so dark, we had to rely on Huiqing's handphone light to walk out of it. Super pathetic but funny.

After all the walking and drama, headed to The Tea Party to chill and play board/card gamesssss! The games are free btw, all you have to do is order food and drinks and you get to play the games there. Yup. :>

This game is damn cute but super lame. -__- All of us were like "Huhhhh?!" HAHA.

Favourite Taboooooooo!!!!

And you can do anything with poker cards. Hehehe.

I believe all of us had alot of fun. A pity Wenting and Ayunie weren't there. Most importantly, Huiqing enjoyed herself. Yayyyyyyyyy. It's always nice to have times like this with them. Happy happy day! ♥

I will be back

2011-03-07T23:46:00.003+08:00

With updates.

Promise. x

127 Hours

2011-02-28T01:32:00.007+08:00

Jst realised I could use a cut. Heh. Click on link to see the rest of the post if you haven't. :)

Caught 127 Hours at Nex. Pretty good show though. :) Even though it could be a bore for some people out there cuz like it's bascially a guy getting trapped, and he tries to save himself. There's a part which was gory, which was the part I covered my eyes throughout because I can't stand gore.

Slacked at Spinelli because everywhere was too crowded for dinner, but then we finally settled for Din Tai Fung. Afterwhich, headed over to some park in Bishan and had a good talk. Hehe. :) And photobucket sux, the contrast and colours of the photos decrease like 10000000x after uploading and I don't know why. Pft. But anyway this is some major pic spam post. Haha.

On a random note, got an interview on Tuesday which am darn nervous for. Wish me luck.

Skins

2011-02-27T03:45:00.003+08:00

Favourite skins gif image<3
Love and miss the 2nd gen soso much. Feel like rewatching 2nd gen just to see them again. Haha.

Kbox

2011-02-25T20:12:00.005+08:00

Met the two girls on Monday for Kbox and we caught up. I look bad in all the photos but w/e, it was a good day. Hehe.

I've been stuck at home for 3 days already. Been tv-ing and cityville-ing all day long. Hahahaha.

Last Day

2011-02-23T02:57:00.004+08:00

So it was officially the last day in school, and the last day of school wasn't pleasant because I pretty much screwed up for the test. It was also the last day I see all the girls together in a class. And I barely talked to Huiqing, Freda and Wenting today. Freda was rushing off to an interview, so I didn't really have the chance to talk to her. Huiqing and Wenting like disappeared right after class. And, I think the only thing I said to Huiqing today in school was "Huiqing can I borrow your hard disk?". It sucks. :/

Hung around with Mel and Lyra at cheers today for around 2 hours. We talked alot about music and the stuff in our lives. I really miss the times like that together with them. If only they were more active in our other outings, like going to town and what not. Mel should stop going to Lot 1 and Lyra should stop going to Westmall. Wish for one day all the girls can really sit down together and just laugh and talk. Not the times during lunch breaks please. They don't count!! Hahaha. It's so hard to get all of us together because our schedules always clash, meh.

Time flies, and year 2 is done. Okay, I'm thinking too much already. I will just... really miss them.

Holidayssss

2011-02-19T16:46:00.003+08:00

Having holidays for a month before my internship starts. Gna make the best out of it before I get out into the real world for 5 whole months.

Meeting my little ivy for dinz later so yups!
All of you have a gr8 wkend and happy holidays! X.

Telling you

2011-02-19T04:43:00.002+08:00

Don't know why I've been feeling weird and emotional lately. Bah.
But anyhow, here's just a song I rly enjoy listening to.

I'm gng to bed. So gdnight. X

Sippin on green tea

2011-02-17T03:31:00.002+08:00

with my huge stitch cup at 3am in the morning.
I should be sleeping but noooooo, i'm not which clearly explains why I'm still here. :p

Happy

2011-02-15T02:19:00.004+08:00

Both pictures done by him.
The sweetest and the cutest. I still smile whenever I look at it.

Don't know who else will ever be able to make me this happy in my entire lifetime. What will I do without you baby. I'll be wearing the necklace for as long as my heart's with you. I love you, and thank you for everything. Muacks. ♥

Holla

2011-02-12T18:41:00.002+08:00

Some last minute plans to meet my bestie today! ^^
Waiting for her text and then I'm leaving.

Have a gr8 wkend ahead! X

I need 18th Feb to come now.

2011-02-11T00:21:00.004+08:00

School's been hectic, I'm can lose my mind any moment. It's so frustrating just to model that stupid cyborg. I wish the cyborg can zbrush itself ah seriously. -____-

I wish I can like hide in the school's lab overnight and do because it sucks to zbrush on my mac. And I think I cannot work with small screens, don't know why I'll feel giddy after awhile. I think I'm spoiled by the lab's computer screens.

Haha k. But anyhow.. I can't wait for the weekends. Ok no correction, the holidays. So sick of all this.

Crazy

2011-02-08T03:35:00.003+08:00

Am still up doing Maya.. well okay I just stopped. I feel like giving up on my final project now. Lol. I'm going crazy just like my msn. I was too busy and engross in my work to even realise I was signing in and out until yilin sent me this screenshot.

Some powerrrrrrrr???? lololol.
Okay this is a very random posttttttt. byebye.

CNY'11

2011-02-07T01:28:00.002+08:00

Daddy!

My brother hehe!

My pretty cousin! kekeke.

That's all for now.
Will be back with more pix. :>

新年快乐！

2011-02-04T02:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALLLLLLLLL! ;)

I'll be back with more updates sooooon.
Stay tune. X

For my best galfwen in the whole entire universe

2011-01-31T01:19:00.004+08:00

I swear the photos we have together are endless, but can you see how much we've changed? Haha. And I mean it when I say you are the best girlfriend on earth. Thanks for never leaving me for the past 5 to 6 years we've known each other. Despite all the arguments we've had before, you still choose to stick by my side and I'm really thankful for that. It's funny how we got to knew each other, and it's funny how we manage to come this far and how close we've become now. I love what we have now and I hope that it stays this way forever. We'll see each other get married and have kids, then our kids can become bestfriends like us!! Hehe. I promise to stand by you forever and ever. You're really the best girlfriend I have on earth, so please don't ever leave me. And you're the only friend I have that's shorter than me. Hahahaha. Love you bby, we'll be bestfriends forever okay? :)

Happy 20th Birthday! ♥
I'll see you soon.

Lots of love from me to you. X

Pew Pew Pew!

2011-01-31T00:41:00.004+08:00

Hehehehe. Took out my DSLR the other day to snap a few pixxxx. For some reason, photobucket likes to desaturate the colours of my photos.

So anyhowwwww, I spent the weekends with my favourite boy! Hehehe. He seems to be very happy everytime I'm about to go home, and I don't know why.... However, he's the sweetest boy on earth. I couldn't stop smiling on the cab when I read the text he sent me. I always fall for his sugar coated words. Can't put to words how much I love him. I love you!! ^^ I know you'll read this.

Lots of stuff to do tomorrow at school! Will be back with updates. :)

Oh and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTIE LINGGGGGGGGGGG! ♥

I'll write a very special post for you. Wait for it. Mwahx.

Meh

2011-01-25T20:08:00.002+08:00

Just done with scriptwriting and I feel kinda relieved because I finally got my work done! I'm bored.. so I photoboothed. I know I look different because I'm not wearing any make up. Well.. I go to school like this everyday except on Fridays.

Should I study for my Jap test since I have nothing to do? But I study now also will forget. Shall leave it till tomorrow/thursdays then. Mm hmmmmm....

My blog is a bore............

Hello!

2011-01-24T21:14:00.002+08:00

Haven't got the feel to blog lately, which explains the lack of updates.
I tweet more so yup.

My life revolves around boyfriend, the girls, friends, school and nothing more. Final project's here, so I guess I'll be spending alot of my weekdays in school. Can't wait for CNY though. Hehe.

That's about it. Will update whenever I can or whenever I find something to blog about.

28th

2011-01-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

You've been such a sweetheart lately.
Love your random text messages, loving everything about you.
Happy 28th Love ♥

Chill

2011-01-19T20:28:00.004+08:00

Chilled with Freda and Huiqing today cuz we ended school early. It's been a really long time since the 3 of us actually chilled. :)

Well, recent events have cause alot of things to change. Honestly, without you, my poly life would be meaningless. You're a piss off but such an entertainment. I like to see you disappoint me. I like to see you fall. I sound so sick, I bet karma's gonna get me one day. But before it does, karma's gonna get you first because karma's a bitch only when you are. Let's just wait and see, shall we? ^^

)':

2011-01-15T20:08:00.004+08:00

I HATE TODAY.

Busy

2011-01-12T11:23:00.003+08:00

It's only the second week of school and I see hell ahead of me. Assignments are already piling up and I believe we're all gonna start on our final project pretty soon.

Just a few tiny updates about my past few days spent. Well, I spent my weekends with the boy. He got me a really really cute camera bag. Polka dots!!! Hehehe! I just love being with him, even if we aren't doing anything much. He makes me very happy, I love you ^^

After the weekends.. school. Had Nuke test on Monday, and I guess it went pretty alright. I based everything on luck. It was just trial and error all the way.

Then yesterday was a really short day at school. Met little ivy after that to do the stuff that we needed to do. She wanted to shop, and I needed to check my bb. And about my bb... sian. I'll talk about it later. But anyhow, we had awesome seaweed shaker fries frm I ♥ Taimei and dragonball milktea!! I love the pearls. Nomnomnom.

So about my bb... my lcd has some feathered cracks which might spread if I'm not careful and it could cause my entire screen to black out. I only dropped it once in my entire life so far!!! But the impact was really hard till it has dents on it so yup. :/

So yup, this sums up my past 3 days. For now, I'm looking forward to the weekends. Staying in school till 9 today again. Fucking orgmod. ):

With choo on last saturday

2011-01-08T13:57:00.002+08:00

Ending the pix spam with my fav bubble tea!!!! :>

Meeting my boyboy later hehe so happy! ^^ Haven't seen him for a week.
Have a good weekend all! X

Budget Shopping

2011-01-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

Had our budget shopping on thursday! Went to city plaza that day, and I bought a few pieces from there! Really cheappppp. Hehe. Wenting and Huiqing couldn't find anything, so they decided to head to Bugis street and they got their buys there. We really walked alot that day till my legs ahh... can die. Hahahaha.

Oh and on a really random note, I'm craving for my bubble tea now. I think I'm addicted to the Jasmine Green Milk Tea from Each A Cup.....

My first post for 2011

2011-01-01T19:59:00.004+08:00

It's a cold and rainy day for a start.
Happy New Year Everyonee!! :>

Last day of 2010

2010-12-31T00:36:00.005+08:00

Today marks the last day of 2010, and well... I must say it has both its ups and downs? But pretty much a bad year. Monkeys really bad luck larrrrrr. I'll just hope for 2011 to be a better one. :) There are people I would like to write to for being with me all these while, so yup, here goes.

Michael
Hello dear! 2010... was one hell of a roller coaster ride for us huh. You are one tough nut to crack. Can really make me so mad and upset sometimes. However, you make me the happiest girl alive and you better keep me the happiest girl alive. Hehe. You know I have my own issues, and as I said, I will try. I really will. Thank you, for not giving up on us, for loving me. I just hope for 2011 to be a better year for us. Eh nono, not only 2011, but the many many years ahead. Stay with me okay? :) I love you. ♥

Ling
Situ Dongcheng.... Hehe. The one I always go crazy with. We talk about all the lamest things together, laugh together, take pictures together, online together, stand up to adjust our shorts together... Hahahaha. But heyyyyyy, thanks for always making me laugh and putting a smile on my face all the time. I'm glad we came this far, it's been 5 years. From "I want your eyes" to "cb wendy". Love you and all your nonsense bby! May your boobs grow bigger in 2011. Hahahaha.

Heidi, Ryan and Ismadi
Hello my 3 siblings from other parents. Even though got no more Fridays together and we don't meet as often as before. Still, being this close means alot, especially when we all used to come from different cliques. Thanks for always being there at my lowest point in life. I realise how the 3 of you would always appear right by my side whenever I'm feeling down. I'm a lucky girl to have found friends like you. Love all 3 of you equally much! :>

Fiona and Yilin
You this two siao zha bor. Also full of nonsense one. Thankful for all the steamboats, photography, shopping trips and what nots. Anyway, the both of you are damn irritating but I love it. Hahahaha. Stay happy okay the both of you? The both of you are the happiest people I know on earth. Especially Fiona. Haha. Love you both! :)

Freda, Huiqing, Wenting, Melody, Lyra and Ayunie
Hello girls. My world without you girls in school will be dreadful. Extremely dreadful. Haha. Can't imagine days in the lab without all of you. So glad that you're the bunch of girls I met in my course. I will never look forward to school without any of you there, I'm serious. Wahaha. My strength to keep me going, to getting my diploma. I just hope for us to always always remain in contact even after we graduate. Lots of love!!! :>

Za
Hello crazy girl. I can't seem to find any recent picture of us, like just the two of us this year. See la, everytime ask you take picture with me you don't want. Only you no picture then I have to draw. AND I AM TALLER MUAHAHA. But anyway.. I guess we drifted alot this year.. sigh. But still, thanks for being there whenever I needed someone. I hope you and the bear are doing fine. So yup, take good care of yourself. I'll still be here whenever you need me. Always! :)

Ivy
Little ivyyyyyyyyyyy! My fellow lunch eating buddy in school. Hehehe. Don't know what I would do without you in Ngee Ann. Hahahaha. We grew alot closer this year because of all the school breaks we have together. You are my no. 1 bimbo. Ai ni worhxxxxx. Rainbows, cupcakes and ribbons for you. Xoxo.

2011 shall be a better for all of us and everyone of you out there. At least, that's what all of us are hoping for, right? Haha. Whoever you're spending new year's eve with, all of you have a great one!

Happy New Year in advance to all of you out there! :D

Happy Pills ^^v

2010-12-29T17:04:00.002+08:00

Ling came over yesterday to play with my webcam. Also because she miss me ^^ Kekeke. Then Boyf and Rusk came over for dinner and watched the 9pm channel 8 drama. Jst a simple and random day with people who make me smile :)

Steamboat with my favourite girls

2010-12-27T15:08:00.006+08:00

The steamboat was terrible. By far, I think it's the worst one I've ever been to. I can't really remember what the shop name was, but we shld have jst stick to the one we always went to. Rah. Even though the steamboat was bad, the company was awesomee. I want more days like these. Slumber party babies? :>
Love you girls xinfinity. Mwahxx.

Black & White

2010-12-26T23:24:00.003+08:00

I know I mia for damnnnn fucking long already, I'm sorry! Haha. Got alot of pix for y'all. Wahaha. Jst a few from the sunday at vivo with my favourite bunch! :>

I will be back with more updates and pix tmrw! :>

It's the 20th

2010-12-20T00:00:00.001+08:00

The number 20 will always mean something. :)

Daren's crib

2010-12-19T12:54:00.004+08:00

House party at D's crib on thursday to start off the holidayssssssss. But okay, I ended up gng back to sch after the party to complete my stupid voldemort. Hate orgmod for lifeee! I actually stayed in school till 3 jst to wait for the damn thing to complete rendering. Pshhh ): Alright, I'm kinda off topic...

So anyway, Heidi and I spent it in the bedroom the whole night as the boys had their fun outside without us. We camwhored, took stupid videos, laughed at anything possible and laid in bed to talk till we fell asleep. Woke up to Ryan and Muddy playing the guitar. Felt just like we were one family. Hehe. My very beloved sister and two brothers. :>

Spending time like that takes alot of things off my mind. Thankful for my little family. :)

Ohhh anddddddddddddd
http://www.formspring.me/juzmewendy
Ask me something? Hehehehe!

Friends for a long time

2010-12-16T03:52:00.003+08:00

A little dinner celebration for Derrick's 20th birthday on Sunday night.
Lovely people, lovely company. :)

Starbux

2010-12-14T20:29:00.004+08:00

At starbucks now with my little ivy. She's studying and I'm working on my 2act script! I got D+ for my first draft.. Sigh..... Damn fucking demoralising please. I don't know how I'm gna do well for my second draft. I enjoy writing but fuckkkkk. Scriptwriting is making me have second doubts about it. I think I really suck at it. Howwwwww. Pui. And it's freeeezing hereeeee. My toes are purple now, no blood circulation. Brrrrrrr.

Alrighty, will update another time soon. Goodbai.

Lonely

2010-12-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

On repeat on repeat on repeat..........

)':

Days grow shorter, nights grow longer.

2010-12-12T04:02:00.003+08:00

I feel fucking terrible, especially when I'm alone at night.
I really want to cry but I can't, and it feels horrible.